Continuum

I forge from anger and blood
a pair of paranormal cutters

I chant a forest fire
to take care of the roots

I sprinkle salt on top
to make it last


28/12/2020

Storage

I drill so deep into my body
that I'm nowhere
The world around me is buzzing
I can't find words from the dark
I can't find you
I can't find myself

I touch my body
it's here
with me

16/12/2020

meat suit

i stand in a dark room
not knowing whether it's a hall or a wind box
under a lamp

on the right stands an adult
left a child
both are me
heel, back, occiput

the zippers are open
feels like i hover
         the adult runs away

the child looks back
straight into my eyes
directly into me

bottomless white eyes
grinning razor teeth
pull me to them like pulling from a rope

         time is distorted
         i'm in rooms where no one is
         outside my bodies without
         the lowest layer of clothing

         without me


11/12/2020

Concealed violence

I dreamed of being an orphan, adopted
less manipulated
I was never silenced
I grew up silent, on my own
into the noisy world


30/10/2020

One

I created a sea for myself
someone else created the fishes

My sea drowned me


27/10/2020

Numb

Someone left the last cord unconnected
the static of the television fills my mind
I don't recognize my own reflection from the mirror
I touch my face and take notice
of my body's empty echo
The volume control recovers from a loose connection
my body has teleported to the bathroom
- I find myself watching the scene unfold from the corner of the ceiling
instead of the floor
Tinnitus

I drift back to sleep
which is my life

16/10/2020