Satunnainen teksti

Continuum

I forge from anger and blood
a pair of paranormal cutters

I chant a forest fire
to take care of the roots

I sprinkle salt on top
to make it last


28/12/2020

Storage

I drill so deep into my body
that I'm nowhere
The world around me is buzzing
I can't find words from the dark
I can't find you
I can't find myself

I touch my body
it's here
with me


16/12/2020

meat suit

i stand in a dark room
not knowing whether it's a hall or a wind box
under a lamp

on the right stands an adult
left a child
both are me
heel, back, occiput

the zippers are open
feels like i hover
         the adult runs away

the child looks back
straight into my eyes
directly into me

bottomless white eyes
grinning razor teeth
pull me to them like pulling from a rope

         time is distorted
         i'm in rooms where no one is
         outside my bodies without
         the lowest layer of clothing

         without me


11/12/2020

Concealed violence

I dreamed of being an orphan, adopted
less manipulated
I was never silenced
I grew up silent, on my own
into the noisy world


30/10/2020

One

I created a sea for myself
someone else created the fishes

My sea drowned me


27/10/2020

Numb

Someone left the last cord unconnected
the static of the television fills my mind
I don't recognize my own reflection from the mirror
I touch my face and take notice
of my body's empty echo
The volume control recovers from a loose connection
my body has teleported to the bathroom
- I find myself watching the scene unfold from the corner of the ceiling
instead of the floor
Tinnitus

I drift back to sleep
which is my life

16/10/2020

request

soft hand
now listen to me
hug me


25/9/2020

Disguise

no one told me I'm a piece of machinery
where do I get oil
how do I treat myself
amongst the people


21/8/2020


Mirror

I try to find pieces of myself in others
pile up a new me out of the sea
these days I breathe better
underwater
choking


21/8/2020

Escape

I don't find myself in routines
or under the covers
I feel like I'm choking
the only way is to exude myself
unnoticed down the drain


21/8/2020

Grave of a Wonderland

My sea doesn't unite with your sea
my words echo on blank pages
I feel like I'm talking to a forest
where a lonely mirror sulks


4/8/2020

now

could i forever stay under your fingers
around you like the stars of the universe

on tiptoes i satisfy your hunger


14/7/2020

present?

feels like i'm nowhere
floating in the emptiness
breaking myself up to fill all the corners
of which many i'm not even aware of

the passage of time blurs in my mind
from which presence i'm awaken by
finding myself in a new place
time after time


10/6/2020

The beginning of a story

Would you stop with me for eternity
we would plant a tree
embrace each other under the leaves
take roots
together
we would drink and feed each other
reach for the stars
while the rain is our bloodstream


29/5/2020

My Aquarius

Pour your water on me
I'm drifting, away
pull me back
to bed
with you to swim in the same direction


1/5/2020

With you

You took the light bulbs
with you to the glass box

I didn't know how to be
in a dark room


19/4/2020

stillness

i hear the universe
i turn inwards
listening

            tree
            old tree
            i grow here too

serenity
importance, evaluation
ambiguous happiness

            key
            i open the door
            to the open sea of happiness, embracing


2/4/2020

blind

i live in the gray area
wondering if i can find myself anymore
from this universe

i feel like i can hurtle
away from the Milky Way
through the slightest movement

touch, touch
living again
through you i see again
myself


24/3/2020

In the Dark

Coldness sharpens me
dots are distance
on top of the frosty characters

The angular spiral has found me


My soul screams inwards
my blood boils silently
I'm sweeping my steps from your heart

Are we more of the same now?


14/2/2020

Pieces

I'm trying to talk
myself to the presence
The spacing between lines seems inviting
cry for help
inside the phlegmatic frame

Sometimes I find myself in your arms
sometimes I unnoticeably sweep myself under the doormat
sometimes I get catapulted into the future with a space cannon
sometimes I notice myself fragmented into the past

Floating in the ocean I created
near you stretching the borders of the puddle
With the starry sky
we can breathe
Time really is a concept


4/2/2020

Battle

I dream of waves
I look at the puddle under me
the wall in front of me whispers to me

My soles are wet
the puddle is diminished
wall silenced

Today I am


           I threw the puddle in the sea


15/1/2020

Note!

The poems have currently been translated all the way back to January 2017, others will mostly appear in Finnish. My apologies, the process takes quite a long time with this many poems. I hope you can still enjoy the ones that are translated!

Number of poems still to be translated

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