I forge from anger and blood
a pair of paranormal cutters
I chant a forest fire
to take care of the roots
I sprinkle salt on top
to make it last
28/12/2020
- Info
Continuum
Storage
I drill so deep into my body
that I'm nowhere
The world around me is buzzing
I can't find words from the dark
I can't find you
I can't find myself
I touch my body
it's here
with me
16/12/2020
meat suit
i stand in a dark room
not knowing whether it's a hall or a wind box
under a lamp
on the right stands an adult
left a child
both are me
heel, back, occiput
the zippers are open
feels like i hover
the adult runs away
the child looks back
straight into my eyes
directly into me
bottomless white eyes
grinning razor teeth
pull me to them like pulling from a rope
time is distorted
i'm in rooms where no one is
outside my bodies without
the lowest layer of clothing
without me
11/12/2020
Concealed violence
I dreamed of being an orphan, adopted
less manipulated
I was never silenced
I grew up silent, on my own
into the noisy world
30/10/2020
less manipulated
I was never silenced
I grew up silent, on my own
into the noisy world
30/10/2020
Numb
Someone left the last cord unconnected
the static of the television fills my mind
I don't recognize my own reflection from the mirror
I touch my face and take notice
of my body's empty echo
The volume control recovers from a loose connection
my body has teleported to the bathroom
- I find myself watching the scene unfold from the corner of the ceiling
instead of the floor
Tinnitus
I drift back to sleep
which is my life
Disguise
no one told me I'm a piece of machinery
where do I get oil
how do I treat myself
amongst the people
21/8/2020
where do I get oil
how do I treat myself
amongst the people
21/8/2020
Mirror
I try to find pieces of myself in others
pile up a new me out of the sea
these days I breathe better
underwater
choking
21/8/2020
Escape
I don't find myself in routines
or under the covers
I feel like I'm choking
the only way is to exude myself
unnoticed down the drain
21/8/2020
Grave of a Wonderland
My sea doesn't unite with your sea
my words echo on blank pages
I feel like I'm talking to a forest
my words echo on blank pages
I feel like I'm talking to a forest
where a lonely mirror sulks
4/8/2020
now
could i forever stay under your fingers
around you like the stars of the universe
around you like the stars of the universe
on tiptoes i satisfy your hunger
14/7/2020
present?
feels like i'm nowhere
floating in the emptiness
breaking myself up to fill all the corners
of which many i'm not even aware of
the passage of time blurs in my mind
from which presence i'm awaken by
finding myself in a new place
time after time
floating in the emptiness
breaking myself up to fill all the corners
of which many i'm not even aware of
the passage of time blurs in my mind
from which presence i'm awaken by
finding myself in a new place
time after time
10/6/2020
The beginning of a story
Would you stop with me for eternity
we would plant a tree
embrace each other under the leaves
take roots
together
we would drink and feed each other
reach for the stars
we would plant a tree
embrace each other under the leaves
take roots
together
we would drink and feed each other
reach for the stars
while the rain is our bloodstream
29/5/2020
My Aquarius
Pour your water on me
I'm drifting, away
pull me back
to bed
with you to swim in the same direction
1/5/2020
I'm drifting, away
pull me back
to bed
with you to swim in the same direction
1/5/2020
With you
You took the light bulbs
with you to the glass box
I didn't know how to be
in a dark room
19/4/2020
with you to the glass box
I didn't know how to be
in a dark room
19/4/2020
stillness
i hear the universe
i turn inwards
listening
tree
old tree
i grow here too
serenity
importance, evaluation
ambiguous happiness
key
i open the door
to the open sea of happiness, embracing
2/4/2020
i turn inwards
listening
tree
old tree
i grow here too
serenity
importance, evaluation
ambiguous happiness
key
i open the door
to the open sea of happiness, embracing
2/4/2020
blind
i live in the gray area
wondering if i can find myself anymore
from this universe
i feel like i can hurtle
away from the Milky Way
through the slightest movement
touch, touch
living again
through you i see again
myself
24/3/2020
wondering if i can find myself anymore
from this universe
i feel like i can hurtle
away from the Milky Way
through the slightest movement
touch, touch
living again
through you i see again
myself
24/3/2020
In the Dark
Coldness sharpens me
dots are distance
on top of the frosty characters
The angular spiral has found me
My soul screams inwards
my blood boils silently
I'm sweeping my steps from your heart
Are we more of the same now?
14/2/2020
dots are distance
on top of the frosty characters
The angular spiral has found me
My soul screams inwards
my blood boils silently
I'm sweeping my steps from your heart
Are we more of the same now?
14/2/2020
Pieces
I'm trying to talk
myself to the presence
The spacing between lines seems inviting
cry for help
inside the phlegmatic frame
Sometimes I find myself in your arms
sometimes I unnoticeably sweep myself under the doormat
sometimes I get catapulted into the future with a space cannon
sometimes I notice myself fragmented into the past
Floating in the ocean I created
near you stretching the borders of the puddle
With the starry sky
we can breathe
Time really is a concept
4/2/2020
myself to the presence
The spacing between lines seems inviting
cry for help
inside the phlegmatic frame
Sometimes I find myself in your arms
sometimes I unnoticeably sweep myself under the doormat
sometimes I get catapulted into the future with a space cannon
sometimes I notice myself fragmented into the past
Floating in the ocean I created
near you stretching the borders of the puddle
With the starry sky
we can breathe
Time really is a concept
4/2/2020
Battle
I dream of waves
I look at the puddle under me
the wall in front of me whispers to me
My soles are wet
the puddle is diminished
wall silenced
Today I am
I threw the puddle in the sea
15/1/2020
I look at the puddle under me
the wall in front of me whispers to me
My soles are wet
the puddle is diminished
wall silenced
Today I am
I threw the puddle in the sea
15/1/2020
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