nightmare (vi)

you said we were vanilla
without wanting to open other flavours

you wanted to show that the relationship works
to the outside
because you knew you were broken

i lived in a lie
because of you
i was just a pawn in the puzzle of your life
when you were looking for the missing pieces

how could I ever stand you

        my honey was a liar


10/11/2019

Darling

Your lap removes
dark clouds from the sky
we're one


30/10/2019

Bad dream

I lose control
           in my dream you feel the same
my mind feels foreign

There's another man standing next to me
my past looks at me

I shred into small pieces
           for you
the masses form two
me's

I swing
upside down
on a swing that has no ropes


10/9/2019

Feeling

I scratch your back
you whisper our future to my ear
a hug forms a planet
in which we live
Chores are like a stream
meta-work is a cloud
that doesn't cover the sun
Your kiss is air
for the fire inside of me
I think I love you


22/8/2019

Parents

My batteries won't power
of you
you look at me as a self-evident object
without any corners at all
I've completely smoothed
whenever I think of you


20/8/2019

Whole

I mix my mind like soup
with the melting ladle I circle the circle
repeating the everyday mantra of storm

You can't taste it
you can't touch it
it's only allowed to swallow me


9/8/2019

Something exists

Something exists I'm scared of blank spaces
I question
           I deny everything
I float in the emptiness with myself
always in the evenings
greenness tucks me in
in the morning I'm grateful of the nightmares


2/8/2019