tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90349280506720334992024-03-12T20:33:26.756-07:00BreathFull of unheard wordsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger751125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-10225888277810723862023-12-14T06:37:00.000-08:002023-12-14T06:37:38.896-08:00someone's mother<p>Monopoly money is all she knows<br />internet to her is mostly unknown<br />to her the children never grow<br />afraid of getting old<br /><br />I don't know what waits for her<br />at the end of the stairs<br />I do know what remains at the beginning<br />the life she never got to live<br /><br /><br /><i>14/12/2023</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-43176930837307002842023-09-28T13:08:00.001-07:002023-09-28T13:08:31.391-07:00tree falls<p>at night i watch your pillow<br />emptiness echoes<br />at your place<br /><br />who am i<br />in a static house<br />can you hear?<br /><br /><br /><i>24/9/2023</i></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-35472436774809244972023-09-25T01:43:00.001-07:002023-09-25T01:43:36.457-07:00fall in lovearound the clock you smell like home<br />with you there's peace<br />your touch ripples<br />i succumb<br /><br />at night<br />you protect me<br />the bed monster stays at bay<br />i love to fall asleep wrapped <b>to you</b><br /><p><br /><br /><i>24/9/2023</i></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-59195246738039353702023-09-18T05:13:00.002-07:002023-09-18T05:13:29.871-07:00To Sleep<p>i'm afraid to go to sleep<br />in the kingdom of blankets<br />memories mold<br />everything turns indifferent<br />necessity to choose new intentions<br />tomorrow<br /><br />wrong place<br />wrong time<br />wrong age<br />wrong me<br />distortions<br /><br />i drift<br />manhunt<br />i managed to escape<br /> was it me?<br /><br />i got soaked<br />on a cloudless weather<br />my feet are in mud<br /><br />in the forest i hear the sounds of a circus<br />from the mouth of a crow comes no sound<br /><br />reset<br /><br /><br /><i>18/9/2023</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-43231534369738509252023-06-28T08:35:00.000-07:002023-06-28T08:35:22.442-07:00TransI follow the stars<br />the scars<br />on my shoulders<br /><br />People like me tend to<br />hold whole universes inside<br />(sometimes) hidden in plain sight<br /><br />The truth<br />makes us smile<br />wide, one with the universe<br /><br />I will live as me<br />I <strike>will</strike> love people like me<br />People love me<i><br /><br /><br />28/6/2023</i><br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-67532804956025132222023-04-17T02:29:00.002-07:002023-04-17T02:29:21.449-07:00rootless<p>the days dance together<br />words were hung on me<br />my thoughts has been attempted to cut<br />the film reel breaks<br /><br />the past expands<br />i narrow down<br />the glass surface crumbles<br /><span style="color: #444444;">i'm</span> drifting<br /><br /><br /><i>17/4/2023</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-14803808389605053502023-03-20T06:47:00.002-07:002023-09-19T13:42:12.123-07:00dot<p>i've been washed<br />the wrong way around<br />i don't feel on my skin<br />it's storming inside me<br />to the point of numbness<br /><br />i count days<br />hours, seconds<br />to your embrace<br /><br />you're radiating colors<br />your touch sparks<br />sometimes i don't know<br />what to say<br />to a star on the sky<br /><br /><br /><i>20/3/2023</i></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-72973170634698317532023-02-12T13:01:00.004-08:002023-02-12T13:01:43.010-08:00pretend<p>a mirror<br />a jar for anger<br />an adult<br />an ornament child<br />compassion on cue<br /><br />there's a void inside<br />always at your disposal<br /><br />pretending<br />is one of the easiest things<br />i've ever done<br /><br /><br /><i>12/2/2023</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-24393257031630925802022-08-31T12:17:00.002-07:002022-08-31T12:20:24.637-07:00The Challenges of Presence<p>I find myself in rooms<br />from undersea Atlantis<br />of flashbacks full of oxygen bubbles<br />- clean air is hard to come by<br />when you're not present<br /><br />Must find the right door<br />the only way to drown yourself<br />to tears flowing from bottom up<br />The heat wave cracks the right opening<br />the tingle floats back to the surface<br /><br />Ghost-like body<br />filled with fatigue<br />of the journey<br /><br />Tomorrow I will wake up <span style="color: #444444;">(perhaps)</span> better<br /><br /><br /><i>19/8/2022 </i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-73866097807820659342022-08-30T13:27:00.001-07:002022-08-30T13:27:18.828-07:00old friend<p>you come to me<br />at rest<br />in varying situations<br />a warm hug feels like you<br />- we joked we were engaged<br /><br />my quiddity warms<br />of sadness and happiness<br />you're both here and not here<span class="VIiyi" lang="en"><span class="JLqJ4b ChMk0b" data-language-for-alternatives="en" data-language-to-translate-into="fi" data-number-of-phrases="19" data-phrase-index="18"><span class="Q4iAWc"><br /><span style="color: #444444;">your presence knows no bounds</span><br /><br />i thank you<br />i long you<br />here<br /><br /><br /><i>14/8/2022</i><br /></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-79326497718104556272022-07-31T13:25:00.002-07:002022-07-31T13:25:18.343-07:00parents i / the circle<p>you became my first bully<br />with how much of a choice<br />no one will ever know<br /><br />love wasn't absent in our household<br />from one person to two<br />from six to six wasn't an equation at sight<br />we luckily didn't lack care<br />care to not appear <span style="color: #444444;">(too)</span> poor for others<br />care that someone didn't die<br />at the hands of another<br />although fights were bumps in love<br />necessary, caused by children<br />echoed the hereditary fairytale in the household<br />chained by pride/ego, <span style="color: #444444;">(self-infused)</span> sin<br />and a seed of blind love<br />that grew rotten in abuse and despair<br /><br />at least someone had their love<br />chosen<br />yet not well performed<br /><br /><br />i'm sorry your parents aren't better either<br />i'm sorry the spouse isn't better<br /><i>'cause who would you learn from</i><br /><br /><br /><i>8/7/2022 </i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-63660957918472472922022-06-06T15:36:00.001-07:002022-06-06T15:36:17.769-07:00i am lost<p>could you<br />be my eyes in the darkness<br />show me the kindness of myself<br />all that you see in me<br />- i don't recognize myself<br /><br />could you<br />provide me your tune<br />to be the signal to tap into<br />- this radio can't find<br />any touchable altitude<br /><br />could <i>i</i><br />see <b>you</b><br /><br /></p><p><i>6/6/2022</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-4131857224187281572022-05-26T15:49:00.001-07:002022-05-26T15:49:08.227-07:00in a way<p>the time spent with you<br />feels like a fever dream<br />collapsed on itself<br />like each of us respectfully<br /><br />maybe this is the time (period)<br />in this universe<br />that our sails<br />take us to different directions<br />by the same wind<br /><br />in a way<br />these cycles always repeat themselves<br />nor by choice or by death<br />I'm going to proceed with an embrace<br /></p><p> </p><p><i> 19/5/2022</i></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-65676084288840749892022-04-25T15:53:00.002-07:002022-04-25T15:53:33.137-07:00Eating MeI praise a free life<br />whilst being scared of leaving<br />the cage that I call my body<br /><br />I keep silently greeting my sister<br />who I've adored and praised all my life<br />alongside other people who expected her<br />to shine on this Earth<br /><br />I should start greeting Myself<br />shredding the pieces of her<br />that have been with me for too long<br />Hopes of someone else<br />are eating me alive<br /><br /><br /><i>21/4/2022</i><br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-15150359789320812962022-02-28T13:37:00.002-08:002022-02-28T14:41:53.879-08:00today<p>in my ocean there are many ports<br />ready to launch forgotten ships<br />from the rays of lonely lanterns<br /><br />i paint myself again<br />into the frames<br />gathering clues as to who i have been<br />whenever i can<br /><br /> today i guess i forgot the frame<br /> now i don't recognize myself<br /> from the dot to dot puzzle<br /><br /> my teeth are brushed by someone<br /> who looks like my sibling</p><p> </p><p>7/2/2022 <br /></p>
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body<span style="color: #444444;">'s memory</span>* always remembers<br /> and that structure is why I'm still standing<br /><br />I know you gave me the frame<br /><i>you never let me forget</i><br />but I make the painting<br />both shape and decorate the frame<br />and I can make it all without you<br /><br /> it is time for you both to learn<br /> that you can not make a frame to be a framework<br /><br /><br />I disowned my parents when I was 15<br /><br /><br /><i>7/9/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-17790528300150391472021-07-26T16:33:00.002-07:002021-07-26T16:34:55.910-07:00The Room<p>my gut is sick<br />my soul is in turmoil<br />from all this roller coaster<br /><br />we've been through a lot<br />we've been through even more<br />everything echoes inside of me<br />like the white light had left the bunker<br /><br />from a lot to too lil<br />happiness turns into sorrow<br />and I lose the ability to grasp<br /><br />I have locked it all<br />I got out<br /> please hold me<br /><br /><br /><i>26/7/21</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-42104065637094497682021-04-11T03:06:00.002-07:002021-04-11T03:07:08.105-07:00our souls dance together<p>the walls vibrate the empty echo<br />i can feel the lack of you<br />the moment i open my eyes<br />on the morning<br /><br />we witness<br />we close<br />the volcano under us<br /><br />we exist somewhere<br />way higher up<br />together in the stars<br /><br /><br /><i>9/4/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-74704143134431781352021-04-03T07:15:00.002-07:002021-04-03T07:15:16.610-07:00(recognize) the hate <p>you're my light<br />in this hazy darkness<br />the forest echoes my past<br />like a monster trying to crawl inside me<br /><br />i've locked myself safe<br />so very very safe<br />in this safe<br />of a glass box<br />which is <i>screaming</i><br />like a tortured animal<br /><br />from a warm home<br />but from a cold room<br />kingdom of mirrors to avoid<br />becoming like you<br /><br />could i moult myself<br />in this safe<br />so i could feel free (again)?<br /><br /><br /><i>3/4/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-43424260675187330022021-04-01T14:23:00.001-07:002021-04-01T14:23:11.271-07:00100 kisses<p>we started by sharing our demons<br />and soon ended up sharing our hearts<br />your never-ending laughter<br />brought me warmth to the cold rain<br /><br />soon we begin planting seeds<br />into each other's pores<br />through 'em to the veins<br />and all the way to the soul<br />our growth bent us towards each other's<br />and we grew stronger together<br /><br />100 kisses were just the beginning<br />thousands of kilometers have never<br />stopped two grains of sand<br />from chanting g'nights through the sky<br />before all the fuzz can be found<br />hiding from all the devils of the world<br />collecting the good energy<br />rooting<br />under a singular blanket<br /><br /><br /><i>1/4/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-38615486799608477882021-03-30T09:10:00.001-07:002021-03-30T09:11:05.691-07:00my soul is with you<p>you know<br />you're falling in love<br />when time loses meaning<br /><br />you know<br />you've fallen in love<br />when their smile is the first<br />and last<br />thing in your day<br />and you still feel like<br />you can't get enough<br />- when sleep becomes secondary<br />and they're your air<br />when you're hungry<br />but they're all you want<br /><br />you know you're in love<br />when you've given your heart<br />in this constant state of happiness<br />when everything about the future<br />stops scaring you<br />and you literally click<br />on the same wavelength<br /><br /><br /><i>29/3/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-55954358846340339752021-03-21T13:43:00.002-07:002021-03-30T09:11:59.584-07:00fullysometimes<br />I don't care that<br />you're so far away<br />'cause you make me feel<br />so warm<br />so at ease<br />so at home<br />regardless<br />and I have a feeling<br />that the world<br />will catch fire<br />when we're together<br /><i>when you take me</i><br /><br /><b>fully</b><br /><br /><br /><i>8/3/2021</i><br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-46707165944602094862021-03-20T11:21:00.001-07:002021-03-20T11:21:51.947-07:00lost<p>i am a bird<br />without a nest<br />a penguin<br />without its burrow<br /><br />and i keep swimming<br />in circles<br /><br /><br /><i>3/3/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9034928050672033499.post-9367862307232859322021-03-19T09:53:00.002-07:002021-03-19T09:53:35.792-07:00it's like<p><span> </span>i'm stuck<br />in here<br />with a wrong body<br />surrounded by wrong people<br />in an entirely wrong life<br /><br />my mind is stuck<br />that no one sees my suffering<br />that no one would help me<br /><br />again<br />even tho you're right <i>here</i><br />in my heart<br /><br />it's like<br />you're trying to share<br />my suffering<br />and amongst many other things<br />i love you for it<br /><br /><br /><i>3/3/2021</i><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com